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at work as usual, & I've only been here for a freaking hour & it feels like it's been 4! ughhh I'm so burnt out with this job. I need to find a new one, but the job market sucks right now =/. ughh I hate the rain, it puts me in this ugly mood.

anywhoo, on with life; it's going okayyy. some things could be hella better, but hey I'm working on it. it's time to buckle down & realize that I'm not getting any younger & the world is just passing me by. I feel like such a slacker listening to my friends with their talks about school. it's crazy that it's almost been 2 years since I've gone! I think the reason I have it on hold is because I don't know what I wanna do.. I've always had the dream to become an actress/model & I honestly tried a few things with that & they didn't work out =/. I won't give up though. if an opportunity ever came up, I would take it in a heartbeat. I've also been thinking of going into a journalism career. possibly write for a magazine? thenn I've also been thinking of a psychology career. I love helping people & giving them advice so I think that's something I wouldn't mind doing. but I'm leaning more towards children. welll not really children but like teens. the world is an ugly place & I know how difficult it is to grow up now. [I have a headache]

goodness, I am sooo ready to go home. the rain just makes me feel ugly & irrates me. & it doesn't help that I'm hungry. don't know why I'm fat mayyne. because my ass never really eats anymore. there's a reason for that buuut I don't think I wanna get into it. noo I'm not anorexic or anything, it's just a different matter. I have like 45 minutes until my break so I'm probably just gonna ramble on about stuffff. I have to pee now.. haha

I hate not being close to people anymore. like I know they're there for me whenever I need em & likewise for me, but it just sucks from always hanging out & keeping in touch to going to not ever talking to them or hanging out with them. growing up sucks. but I am grateful for the few close friends that I still have <3 even though it's only like 3 or 4 haha. I guess that's what happens when we both want it. speaking of friends, I'm supposed to have alittle date with Jacquelineee & Holly & I'm ober excited :D. it's been a few weekends since I've seen Jackie & forever & a day since I've seen Holly. I know what happens when I makes plans soo I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

it's time to get out of the routine of just going to work then staying home & being stuck up Lysny's butt. I need to get out more. I am soo tempted on one of my days off to take off & just drive somewhere. don't know where I'll go, but I just need to get away for alittle while. I need to clear my head & just not worry about anything else for a while. God, that sounds so amazing right now. I better go while the gas prices aren't too bad..

alriiighty well I killed 15 minutes. & I think it's time to stop. soo until next tyyyme..


xoxo