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at work as usual, & I've only been here for a freaking hour & it feels like it's been 4! ughhh I'm so burnt out with this job. I need to find a new one, but the job market sucks right now =/. ughh I hate the rain, it puts me in this ugly mood.

anywhoo, on with life; it's going okayyy. some things could be hella better, but hey I'm working on it. it's time to buckle down & realize that I'm not getting any younger & the world is just passing me by. I feel like such a slacker listening to my friends with their talks about school. it's crazy that it's almost been 2 years since I've gone! I think the reason I have it on hold is because I don't know what I wanna do.. I've always had the dream to become an actress/model & I honestly tried a few things with that & they didn't work out =/. I won't give up though. if an opportunity ever came up, I would take it in a heartbeat. I've also been thinking of going into a journalism career. possibly write for a magazine? thenn I've also been thinking of a psychology career. I love helping people & giving them advice so I think that's something I wouldn't mind doing. but I'm leaning more towards children. welll not really children but like teens. the world is an ugly place & I know how difficult it is to grow up now. [I have a headache]

goodness, I am sooo ready to go home. the rain just makes me feel ugly & irrates me. & it doesn't help that I'm hungry. don't know why I'm fat mayyne. because my ass never really eats anymore. there's a reason for that buuut I don't think I wanna get into it. noo I'm not anorexic or anything, it's just a different matter. I have like 45 minutes until my break so I'm probably just gonna ramble on about stuffff. I have to pee now.. haha

I hate not being close to people anymore. like I know they're there for me whenever I need em & likewise for me, but it just sucks from always hanging out & keeping in touch to going to not ever talking to them or hanging out with them. growing up sucks. but I am grateful for the few close friends that I still have <3 even though it's only like 3 or 4 haha. I guess that's what happens when we both want it. speaking of friends, I'm supposed to have alittle date with Jacquelineee & Holly & I'm ober excited :D. it's been a few weekends since I've seen Jackie & forever & a day since I've seen Holly. I know what happens when I makes plans soo I'm keeping my fingers crossed!

it's time to get out of the routine of just going to work then staying home & being stuck up Lysny's butt. I need to get out more. I am soo tempted on one of my days off to take off & just drive somewhere. don't know where I'll go, but I just need to get away for alittle while. I need to clear my head & just not worry about anything else for a while. God, that sounds so amazing right now. I better go while the gas prices aren't too bad..

alriiighty well I killed 15 minutes. & I think it's time to stop. soo until next tyyyme..


xoxo

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first post using bloggerr! I still love you el jay; I mean we practically grew up together! haha

ughh I'm at work, been here since 12 & I am SO ready to go home! less than 2 hours :D this day is just dragging on. hmm wonder what we're gonna get into tonight.. hopefully there will be something to do! & hopefully a certain someone doesn't fall asleep like last night! haha look at me writing as if they're gonna read this. okayy, I'm about to start rambling on, soo let me get off while I'm a head haha

peacee!